There are tears, tears everywhere...

this man is a small (big) genius, he's so talented!

I just wish people could recognize is talent more because this man, he is a prophet, he is a hero, and he deserves the best, I will support him ALWAYS because he ALWAYS gave me hope and never left me alone, I love him so much it hurts, and I hope that someday he will be bigger than what he already is, because he deserves it...

Someone, tell me how I've ended up here

With nobody watching over me?

We need to bring back the days we used to love

Before all the colour drains away

-Day In Day Out

ilovearchitectssomuch

AMEN

Austin Carlile's birthday is tomorrow :)

and my grandfather's tomorrow too

My life has more drama than Of Mice & Men OMFG

and heres crappy webcam picture of a guitar I drew because I was bored!

It's an Eclipse II QM from ESP Guitars :)

Alan Ashby has one

Phil Manansala has one

Elliott Gruenberg has one

and lot of people have one

DAMN THE PIC IS REALLY SHITTY

fuck you google webcam

I really can't believe what just happened... :o

So I was on Facebook and I went on my profile and decided to change my cover picture because the Of Mice & Men pic I had there was really blured, and I was finishing my Elliott Gruenberg (baby omfg) drawing  so I decided that I would use the reference pic of Elliott I was using for the drawing has cover picture on Facebook and the one who the name most not be pronounced (not Voldemort, Bea) liked the picture!

She has ignored everything I told her about BTF and about Elliott and now after all she did today and since school started she decides to like the pic just because he is holding a guitar and she thinks she is too hardcore because she likes guitars and plays guitar!

PLEASE BITCH!

Today another really important person to me left me alone, since today me and Bea are no longer friends...

Last week, she started hanging out with the other people in our class and start leaving me alone, she runs away from me everytime she sees me like I have some fucking desease or something like that. Today I asked her after the History of Art class if she would come with me to the school store so I could buy a few pencils I needed, and she kinda stayed mad because she wanted to go outside and spend the 10minutes we had before the Drawing class with people who smoke because she thinks that if she spends time with them she can became very popular in school and have all the boys, she went with me anyway because the other Susana was going to spend the 10min with her boyfriend, so we went downstairs so I could go buy my pencils, and she waited outside the school store, I could perfectly see that she was only doing that because she didn't wanted to tell me in the face 'I don't want to hang out with you anymore', the 10 minutes passed and I didn't had my pencils yet because the women who was 'serving us' was also taking some copies for a teacher... so Bea came in and said 'The ten minutes are over, I need to go' and I said ' Oh you can wait for your ''friends'' to finish a cigarrete, but you can't wait for me to buy a fucking pencil?' and she said ' I wait for them because I want to be with them' and I left without any pencil and went upstairs again for the Drawing classes when we got there the teacher was not there yet (like always) and I sat listening to music almost crying, and she went to sat somewhere else really far from me and she looked really mad because she wasted like 13minutes waiting for her supposted best friend to buy some fucking pencils instead of spending those 13minutes with a bunch of people who don't give a single fuck about her who only care about smoking, and sex, they don't even have a good music taste! when the teached arrived we got in the classroom and she told us to draw a few boxes she was holding, I sat really far from Bea because I really don't want to talk with her ever again in my life...after 20minutes everyone was finishing theire drawings and my paper was completly blank, so the teacher came by and talked with me, she asked me what was going on but I said nothing and tried to hide my tears, she drew me a few stuff for reference ans told me to go catch some air I left the classroom crying so hard that I could barely see what was in front on me, I'm glad Bea didn't saw me crying, she would probably laugh in my face, I went to catch some air and listened to Of Mice & Men a little bit, and went back to the classroom after 15minutes maybe more, the teached asked me if I as feeling better and I said yes, she told me that I didn't had to draw anything, If I was feeling down I should just close my eyes and erase my mind so I could rise up again, I love what she told me, and I really like her she is really nice and she cares a lot about her students, I actually drew a little bit and she said that it was great, I left the classroom as soon I has could because I really didn't wanted to see Bea's face so I just runned a little bit and got out of school...

So yeah, now all that I have left is Music again...
I'm going to stick through Art, I'm going to draw everything that goes through my mind, and have my earphones near, and I'll probably start writing all my feels down, and I don't really want to have friends anymore, I don't want to be used anymore, I just want to be happy, and Music makes me happy so yeah

sorry this big wall of text but I really needed to get this out of my chest, and a little mesage to Bea:

You are not as special as you maybe think you are, and I really hope those people who you replaced me who take your filthy heart and throw it away some day, I trusted you like I never trusted no one and you fucking cheated on me, so have a good life because mine is going to be really good without you...

New Chelsea Grin is better than old Chelsea Grin!

HATERS GONNA HATE

POTATOES GONNA POTATE

ALLIGATORS GONNA ALLIGATE

ATTILA have nice instrumental parts, but I really don't like the screams (lol they are completly normal but Payback its a bitch) but the almost normal vocals are great :) lol lol lol

lol

going to check bands on Youtube and write something about the here so I can remeber their names x)

can we please just take a moment to appreciate that The Maine are covering Cyndi Lauper's 'Girls Just Wanna Have Fun' for Punk Goes Pop 5?

and craig owens covering coldplay's paradise

lol bea just asked me if today was Shayley Bourget birthday! OMFG YOU ALREADY TALKED TO HIM, AND MUCH MORE, and I, I fucking know when its his birthday and what do I GET? NOTHING

my mom just called saying she will bring McDonnalds, only her to make me feel better about Ben Tovey and Bea :/

I mean, I bought their music, merch, I share their music with everyone I know, I made them win a lot of fans, and I would go to the end of the world for RTR and bea she did NOTHING and she all the band members she tries to contact always awnswer her :(

my friends this is fucking awesome

just heard new Black Tide and I don't like it :/ It sounds awkward I mean they put out 2 fucking great CD's and then they make this thing (i don't really know how to call it because it sucks) ... i just dont know, i just don't like it...Let's hope its just a phase and that they will make an album like Post Mortem and Light From Above soon :D

BEN FUCKING TOVEY FORM RISE TO FUCKING REMAIN JUST ADDED BEA FUCKING NUNES ON FACEBOOK! OMFG

so i sended him a request to, lets see if he adds me too, if he doesn't I will draw a mustache in all my rise to remain posters and on every pic of him I have, incluiding the ones on theire CD :P

AWKWARD IS ON!

ADIÓS!

OMFG! 'GOOD RIDDANCE' BY GREEN DAY WAS ON TV RIGHT NOW!

so much better than oh love, and kill the dj :/

aww and I'm also really happy that The Getaway Plan are wining a lot of fans in this tour with Pierce The Veil...my babys, I just wish I was there :( but omfg so happy, they are really great and they deserve to be known

If I ever get to see You Me At Six live I'm going to take a poster with me saying:

'Josh would you be the King to my Peasant?'

much much better than take one to a blessthefall concert saying:

'Hey Elliott, are you alone tonight?'

I decided to stop by to write how the first week of school was like...

So Monday was awkward and I got lost a little bit x)
Tuesday was exactly like Monday but Bea totally left me alone at lunch time :(
Wendesday was awful because a mosquito bite (its bite right?) my feet and it infected and I could barely walk.....
Thursday was the last day of the week because day 21 (Friday) is the day we celabrate someting idk we just  don't have school, but its only in my town, I just don't know...Bea left me completly alone the all day but we already talked about it and she said she was sorry (yeah right -.-') and this girl Rita on my class said she liked my Dragon Ball shirt and that its fucking awesome, I acepted her request on facebook and she loves Pokemon, Death Note and InuYasha, so yeah we should be friends :)

And I'm starting to notice that my drawing skills aren't good enough for this but we are just in the begining and my drawing teached said I would leave her classes drawing like a pro and that makes me happy :P

And (and) my Art History teacher told us we have to make a project about ourselfs in photography or video format and I'm pretty scared about it because I have no ideia what to do :/

And (and again) I hate most of he people on my class, THEY ARE A BUNCH OF PEASANTS!!!

Thank you Photoshop for making one of my dreams real

twice :P

ignoremyfaceplease

Idek anything anymore, all this school stuff omfg

and I'm not forever 21 anymore, I'm number 26 now :'(

And there is another Susana in my class and that is a reason for people to call me Squidgy :')

But yeah I have no ideia what is going on and idek man is just BUM

alpha omega

*.*

damn'

going to ask my mom if I can make two guitar picks like this an make a necklace and and save the other to play :)

Remember when I wished I was Beau Bokan 

yep, me too

LONG HAIR ELLIOTT IS THE BEST ELLIOTT

see I told you

Can we take a moment to appreciate how good Elliott Gruenberg looks on a suit?

of course we can

DEAD

i CAN'T

HE IS

SOOOOO 

ASDJHAGFÇKJSAGDF

ASKFHGADHFG

OMFG 

*sigh*

This band is my life,  words can't  explain how much I love this band and how much they mean to me.

When I first listened Buried at Sea I was blowned way,  they changed my life and helped me grow I love them so much it hurts and I'm going to support them no matter what, theire lyrics inspire me and they thought me to believe in myself, and if someone ever says shit about them in from of me they better run because I'll defend Architects for the rest of my life, if on that day I didn't opened their Buried at Sea music video for mistake while searching about architecture on YouTube I'd probably be listening to 1D and Justin Bieber, so thank you Architects, thank you Sam Carter, thank you Dan Searle, thank you Tom Searle, thank you Ali 'Dino', thank you Tim HB and thank you Matt Johnson because without you there was no Architects, thank You for changing my life and thank you for getting me in this music genre...

GIMME GIMME!

Dan&Tom Searle

more like 

Mr Dan Perfection Searle and Mr Tom Perfection Searle

Cause of Death : Samuel David Carter playing drums

Who are you?

Where do you live?

Why are you older than me?

Why you so perfect?

OMG Who are you?

*sigh*

Perfect BTF are Perfect :D

(elliott's hair :P)

so perfect it hurts

<3

PLEASE HELP ME MY CLASSMATES ARE A BUNCH OF PEASANTS

I'm really scared about Breathe Carolina covering Billy Jean from MJ for Punk Goes Pop 5 but I'm hapy that they are there :) and th Call Me Maybe cover by UTD omfg is perfect and Grenade by MMF oh god

• Alex Gaskarth's Lyrics: Sing me to sleep I'll see you in my dreams, waiting to say I miss you, I'm so sorry.
• Alex Gaskarth In Interviews: We don't offer you any solutions necessarily, but we definitely offer you a minute to escape.
• Alex Gaskarth's Therapy Speeches: This goes out to anyone who feels alone, this goes out to anyone who feels they need help. Remember to always be who you are, you are the fucking shit. No one can change that. Don’t let them.
• Alex Gaskarth Normally On Stage: BOOBS, I GOT LAID LAST NIGHT. WHO CAME TO PARTY? HANDJOBS. LET'S GET HIM LAID TONIGHT PEOPLE. OH SHIT. IF I MET YOU IN A DARK ALLEY I MIGHT MAKE OUT WITH YOU ACCIDENTALLY BUT HEY. WHY ARE YOU BEING SO AWKWARD?

AMEN

HOW CAN YOU PLAY GUITAR WITH THAT IN YOUR HAND?

maybe you are just pretending you can play

DAVID SCHMITT YOU MOTHAFOCKA!

I love this so much :)

Its one of the best Corpse Bride tattoos ever, it's probably the best Tim Burton tatto ever, is just so beautiful it hurts omfg

(shame theres no victor, at least I see no victor)

I made a new friend omfg its a miracle! 

Her name is Bea, and no its not the Bea that I already know, its a new Bea, lol

She said I was nice, she is studying arts in the same highschool has I and she seems realy nice too, even tho her music taste is awful, she is on 10th T and she asked me if I wanted to walk to school with her in the morning and in the afternoon and she said my chibis were really cute omfg :)

So yeah its a miracle...

oh god

*.*

<3

A good picture of Austin Carlile always makes me feel better

God bless this man!

I'm going to look at pictures of band members while listening to La Dispute so I can calm the fuck down!

I'M SO FUCKING PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW! 

OMFG

So since school starts tomorrow everyone is updating their facebook status with their new school and guess what?

4 fucking year ago I run away from my hometown because everyone fucking annoyed me! and now everyone is coming to my highschool WTF? I hate you all, you are a buch of peasants and omfg I wish I never met you and now you just decide that you are going to make a 45minute trip every fucking morning and every fucking afternoon so you can annoy me a little bit more GO TO HELL!

Well I'm going to freak out over 10th U a little bit more

lol just joking I'm going to eat something

OH AND IT LOoks like Alexandra isn't in any of the 22 10th grade classes oops.

looks like someone isn't good enough to be in the best highschool of the country

(oh yeah this year only 30 students in this country went to college to study medicine, 25 of those studied in my highschool, Egas Moniz who won the Nobel Price studied in my highschool so yeah I'm awesome)

So my mom went to school to know more stuff about 10th U lol

And she said that the people on my class are a bunch of hipsters Ui this is going to be fun -.-'

She also said that I have classes almost always in the same room wich is pretty great.

And I have Art History almos everyday for 2hours each day and that is BORING, but I guess I can deal with it.

On Mondays&Wednesdays I only have classes in the morning, on Tuesdays &Fridays I have classes till 18:25, and on Thursdays till 17:25 AND I CHOOSED MORNING CLASSES, image if I choosed afternoon classes -.-'

Well tomorrow at 10:00 I have to go to school so I can meet my lovely hipster class mates -.-' and to get to know the school and everything starts on Monday!

SCHOOL PLEASE BE NICE TO ME!

SO AUSTIN DICKINSON'S MIDLE NAME IS SÜPERHANS!

MAYBE 10th U ISN'T THAT BAD AT ALL!

Hi my name is Susana, I'm 15 and I'm on the 10th grade, class U.

sorry i'm still freaking out because U

I need something to draw!

Anyone there who wants to help?

forever alone

I was sitting in this really awfull chair listening to blessthefall when Bea texted me telling me that my/our class is 10th U. 

Our letter is U.

U is a nice letter I must say!

Well at least we are in the same class.

U

SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW 

There are tears.

Tears.

Tears everywhere...

I FANGIRL TOO HARD

(lol this sounded awkward)

Just realized that my Elliott drawing needs more shadows (a lot more) the poor boy looks like a ghost :P

but it still looks really cute AH!

Yesterday I finally did the rest of my chibi plushie head that I start doing in June lol
I did the body and I did it twice as big has the head but the body was still toooo small for the head so I started to make another but now I'm too lazy to finish :P

I'm going to watch Prince of Bel-Air!

I shall leave you Austin Dickinson Meme because I don't post it in a long time

and I shall came later or tomorrow to post my Elliott Gruenberg drawing and my other stuff I promised to post yesterday :) 

I also need to post here my Elliott chibi and my Jake Pitts chibi :D

So yeah ByeBye*

OH MY OVARIES

 BUUM!

I'm getting so obcessed over La Dispute, The Getaway Plan and blessthefall, you really don't understand!

La Dispute lyrics are so beautiful it hurts, and The Getaway Plan's Matthew Wright voice kills me, and blessthefall's guitar solos are just so omg omg omg!

I have to go to school tomorrow to know in wich class I am and I really hope Bea is in my class, she is the only friend I have and I don't like to make new friends and I'm really awkward so no one will talk to me, so yeah I really hope we are in the same class :)

Oh and my old best friend who stopped talking with me and then blamed me for all the problems in her life is going to the same  school I do, and that really creeps me out, I mean she lives so far way from here and now she is coming to the same highschool has I, awkward. Hoping she is not taking Art morning classes like I because I really don't want to see her.

So this is what I did today:

NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
BLOGGED
ATE
BLOGGED
CRIED OVER BAND MEMBERS
NOTHING
NOTHING
ATE
DREW ELLIOTT GRUENBERG
ATE
CRIED OVER BAND MEMBERS
BLOGGED
AND CRIED A LITTLE BIT MORE!

MY LIFE IS A FART....

IMAGINE IF I WAS FUNNY!

JUST IMAGINE

and if I was pretty

JUST IMAGINE...

The only band with girl vocals I like is Sleeping With Sirens ;)

oh and We Are The Ocean!

I'm such a poser :P

I really like The Getaway Plan ok, they are perfect :)

LOOK AT THEM BEING ALL PERFECT!

its a shame the crowd sucks!

AMEN!

PLOT TWIST: Pierce The Veil take normal band picture

(let's face it, theire band pictures are a little bit awkward)

Elliott is so cutee OMG!!111

I 

 MEAN

LOOK

AT

HIM

HE IS SUCH A BABE!

 PERFECTION

REMEMBER WHEN?

Elliott Gruenberg APPRECIATION POST!

He is so Perfect omfg omfg omfg omfg I CAN'T!

I MEAN LOOK AT HIM!