Today another really important person to me left me alone, since today me and Bea are no longer friends...

Last week, she started hanging out with the other people in our class and start leaving me alone, she runs away from me everytime she sees me like I have some fucking desease or something like that. Today I asked her after the History of Art class if she would come with me to the school store so I could buy a few pencils I needed, and she kinda stayed mad because she wanted to go outside and spend the 10minutes we had before the Drawing class with people who smoke because she thinks that if she spends time with them she can became very popular in school and have all the boys, she went with me anyway because the other Susana was going to spend the 10min with her boyfriend, so we went downstairs so I could go buy my pencils, and she waited outside the school store, I could perfectly see that she was only doing that because she didn't wanted to tell me in the face 'I don't want to hang out with you anymore', the 10 minutes passed and I didn't had my pencils yet because the women who was 'serving us' was also taking some copies for a teacher... so Bea came in and said 'The ten minutes are over, I need to go' and I said ' Oh you can wait for your ''friends'' to finish a cigarrete, but you can't wait for me to buy a fucking pencil?' and she said ' I wait for them because I want to be with them' and I left without any pencil and went upstairs again for the Drawing classes when we got there the teacher was not there yet (like always) and I sat listening to music almost crying, and she went to sat somewhere else really far from me and she looked really mad because she wasted like 13minutes waiting for her supposted best friend to buy some fucking pencils instead of spending those 13minutes with a bunch of people who don't give a single fuck about her who only care about smoking, and sex, they don't even have a good music taste! when the teached arrived we got in the classroom and she told us to draw a few boxes she was holding, I sat really far from Bea because I really don't want to talk with her ever again in my life...after 20minutes everyone was finishing theire drawings and my paper was completly blank, so the teacher came by and talked with me, she asked me what was going on but I said nothing and tried to hide my tears, she drew me a few stuff for reference ans told me to go catch some air I left the classroom crying so hard that I could barely see what was in front on me, I'm glad Bea didn't saw me crying, she would probably laugh in my face, I went to catch some air and listened to Of Mice & Men a little bit, and went back to the classroom after 15minutes maybe more, the teached asked me if I as feeling better and I said yes, she told me that I didn't had to draw anything, If I was feeling down I should just close my eyes and erase my mind so I could rise up again, I love what she told me, and I really like her she is really nice and she cares a lot about her students, I actually drew a little bit and she said that it was great, I left the classroom as soon I has could because I really didn't wanted to see Bea's face so I just runned a little bit and got out of school...

So yeah, now all that I have left is Music again...
I'm going to stick through Art, I'm going to draw everything that goes through my mind, and have my earphones near, and I'll probably start writing all my feels down, and I don't really want to have friends anymore, I don't want to be used anymore, I just want to be happy, and Music makes me happy so yeah

sorry this big wall of text but I really needed to get this out of my chest, and a little mesage to Bea:

You are not as special as you maybe think you are, and I really hope those people who you replaced me who take your filthy heart and throw it away some day, I trusted you like I never trusted no one and you fucking cheated on me, so have a good life because mine is going to be really good without you...